LIFE SUCKS!

normally i would use "stink" instead of "sucks" but today totally sucks -.- well not totally. still it sucks. early in school, saw sean with his "story". wah so violent sia. and all random and crazy stuff.

And then ... free periods, and maths. Sean let me read part of his story then dont let me read liao... -.- the whole free period i nothing to do. sleep, cant sleep, look around. sleep sian liao lar!!! sneak to pin ren then watch him play jk hand phone. then recess, Mixed rice dunno eat what , no good stuff. Organized a lunch with pin ren and his friends. then go back class .. its maths !!! -.-'' Then, after school was extra maths, Mr phua got angry and wanted us to do a test once the school started ... all those who doesnt get 70%+ will stay back. for the first few days and till 5pm.

Sian lor. then after sch i went with pin ren, they all go north point eat, said the last byes to valancia , cecelia they all. Non of them reply except valancia, who kinda said "Hi" which i didnt really heard. oh well.

Eat korean rice with fried fish and curry. the curry tastes so like mcdonald's. lol. Then after that, said my last good byes to them, well for this year. then went home.

Play my computer, then rushed back to sch for prefect duties.stood for like 2 hours, inside AVA room, listening to parental talk, helping parents with their needs, helping teachers get chairs from oasis!!! wah so tired >.<

After that we went down to help parents with their needs while they are eating, then we had the left overs, no folks nor spoon nor syrups. T.T Ate with sean then played family bonding game with sean's family lols , won one box of oreos (prepare to get china milks XD) Won 2 packets of biscult. Sean they all also won, then sean father so good! He gave me a ride to my house!!!

Sean is so lucky to have such good parents! lol although his father was being sarcastic when he started driving. he said "Sean is such a good boy, *seans says "Sarcastic"* Sean Will cleans up the dishes if he sees it, *sean says sarcastic again* sean will bah bah bah bah. so this continues for awhile. lols =P. Then his mother asked how to pronouce my name, Pereira... perele pa.... wallaallapee. lols -.- so his father make fun of my name then sean and his mother both tell him not to. sean sister told me not to take it seriously lol.

Then i chat with sean's mother for awhile, spoke english, chinese and cantoenese lols. talking about both myself and sean. I reached home, My grandmother , father, father's "girlfriend" all wasnt at home, except my aunt which i couldnt get her to open the door, my neighbor helped.

Then they came home out of a sudden. My father read my report book, the only thing he read is the first 3 results, and say "all the exam just pass only!" then he reads the teacher's comment "The teacher says you need revision during holidays" I HATE HIM. then he keeps talking about locking my computer... time to prepare for the worst!

Hate my father, hate my family, hate my life. Theres really really nothing else for me to live for.
I want to die... but how. I cant die yet, or my grandmother wouldnt be happy. I also dont want to die in a slow and painful way... i want to die so fast, i will die instantly. all the time while i walk, i hope some kind of natural disaster or something would kill me. or at least in school, this way my family could recieve insulrance or whatever.