ellos, today ... sucks as well

a lot of the classmates went for NCC and stuff, wencheng 's having fever, jordan on quarrantine, swuan yee still overseas. at least the class is a bit less noisy now.
the first few periods, sean was being cold to me as usual, so was boon hock.

during recess time, it sucked, ate french fries. in the end, sean and boon hock ditched me again, then i ended up sitting with weiyan and khaywee. and im like... unfamiliar with them? felt like a extra, so i just went off first.
some of my friend went to "fight" with me, and pin ren was giving me tips to fight back, but ... its like friend disturbing, why take it so seriously. and his like "you're so weak" =.= omg then i say he would be better at the camp and he tells me no one likes me =.= i guess thats true.. who knows, maybe your own friends hate you deep in their hearts.

after recess, did the survey about the school at the computer lab. it was freaking cold =.='' a lot of us are getting sick too, raymond's having a cold or something too.

history was pretty boring, sean was acting weird and stuff, throwing staples at me then trying to fame me by saying i throw staples at boon hock and him =.= and hui fen's like "O.o.O" or something , ms siti's like o.o

omg =.=

then later during mr james lesson, he went to pull down the projector screen and it broke again. but this time, wencheng's not here. I became the one who's suppose to go down and tell the office. mr james keep telling me the obvious stuff like, the screw is loosen, i pull it down and it fell. like hell its loosen. theres one big crack there man.

after i went down to the office, the bitch there was fking mess up. i asked politely "good afternoon, my class's projector screen is broke , may i find mr phua?" and without saying anything she went to find mr phua. comes back and tell me his not there. then i ask again about the projector screen. I was answering halfway and she didnt even bother to listen and just gave me a paper for me to write down what happen. wtf is wrong with you. must you show me that fk face? if i wasnt a prefect i would have gave the middle finger man _|_

then when i went up, his computer have some problems and then boon hock couldnt fix it. and i had to help again. like i wasnt piss off by that bitch, now i have another problem. =.= and in the end , i had to restart the computer to fix it. guess what, mr james didnt even say thanks. he really treat us like tools. then adrian came to sit with me cuz he didnt have his book, then while we were talking, sean came strangling me =.= saying i took his bottle. i really feel like killing someone at that point =.=''

anyways , thats "mostly" all of this sucky day.

sometimes i think... whats the point of living? i havent find the reason for me to live yet... people are like, careful on your life so you get to enjoy another day. its more like, suffer another day. who knows whats going to happen the next day? you might just get pissed off by someone you hated or something.
i bet the world's a whole lot better without a guy like me .

chong weng would be... even in PEs he'll be taking it freaking seriously. even if its just a freaking game, which apparently, you're suppose to enjoy in. like last time. i didnt even intend to play the freaking game , i was just standing in one corner and adrian passed me the ball. then everyone started blaming me like someone died. chong weng's like "you go die lar" . even if i die... no one will care . everyone's gonna celebrate then.

long time since i typed this kind of post .. everything's rewinding back to how it was before the holidays...
to me, the only reason that i havent given up on life is because of my grandmother ... if i die, then her efforts will be wasted. man... im so weak.